Tuesday, 24 February 2015

Body Issues.

Ok guys and gals, I feel like this post will be very preachy and whiny. Which I apologise for in advanced. I have no plan for this post and basically will just be writing whatever comes into my head as it does. I just feel like I wanna write about this so here goes... Body Issues.

Let me tell you a little about me that I have probably mentioned in previous posts.. I am 5ft 1inch. Back in  the end of 2011/ start of 2012 I weighed 8stone 3 to 8stone 5. This is healthy and there is nothing wrong with this but I was very unhappy and decided to do something about it. So about a year later in 2013 I weighed 7stone 2. Which has remained since really. I go between 7stone 2 up to 7stone 4 and never really change outside of those areas. However today I weighed myself, after a weekend away filled with booze and loads of food and the scales horrified me when it flashed up saying 7stone 5 and 1/3. 

WHY?! Why did I burst into tears when I weigh precisely 1 pound over my normal? What is so wrong in my brain that I obsess over my weight? Why do I know what the calorie count is for most foods? Why do I cry 98% of the time when I look at my body? And why do I think about things like exercise, foods and my weight most of the time?  

The biggest question.. why has this become the normal in our society? Why is there so much pressure on how we are supposed to look? I try to work out every day, I try my best to eat at least decently so why am I still so tough on myself?

I recently read an article by Iona St Joesph from buzzfeed which you can read here, that showed what the same size jeans looked like from 10 different high street stores. I love this! Personally I have a pair of mom jeans from River Island that hang of me and I had to put an extra hole in a belt to make them wearable.. but then in the same size I have a another pair of high waisted jeans that I have to lie down, hold my breath and wriggle just to get them on! So why is this happening? This is obviously doing nothing to help promote a healthy body image when you are constantly having to change clothing sizes!?

Why is it than when I see a picture of a celebrity that has gain weight, I find it more surprising than a picture of a celebrity that is very very skinny.

Why does this picture of this gorgeous Kelly Clarkson shock me more than this infamous picture of Nicole Richie? Is it because the one of Nicole is an old one? Or is it because the media makes such a big deal when a celebrity gains a bit of weight? I simply googled Kelly Clarkson's name for a picture of her and the amount of articles that appeared, shaming her for gaining weight was disgusting. This is such a shame that due to the media we see this as shocking. That this has actually made news?! The media should be focusing on celebrities talents and not their weight surely?

I understand that basically this post is just rambling and probably won't make loads of sense. I do hope when you read this you understand that I am not 'fat-shaming' or 'skinny-shaming'. I am just wanting to get across that everyone should feel confident in their owns bodies. The other day one of my best friends tweeted that she was feeling really great in herself, really self-confident and that she wished everyone could feel the way she was feeling. I nearly cried when I read this because I felt so unbelievably happy for her.

So guys I am reaching out to see if you have any tips of feeling confident in yourselves and loving your body. Because I have to admit to you all, the way I feel recently is really bringing my whole mood down constantly. My poor best friends have all had at least one text with me breaking down, in hysterics about how much I hate my body. And I really don't want to be this way forever! 

I am sorry for getting so deep and personal on you all but I just had to vent on what I feel like is a big issue and hope you don't mind me saying all this! I promise I will be back to nice and cheery posts after this!

Lots of Love,
G x

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